I hate my job and I’m disappointed in myself. I have gotten to a point where I am angry everyday that I come to work. I don’t like that I have become this way and that a certain individual has gotten me to a point where just looking at them infuriates me. I think I need to start doing something to try and find my inner zen and be more relaxed when I come to work but I honestly have no idea how to do that. All I know is that this person really makes me angry. She is a child and basically kisses the ass of the director so the director plays favorites and she somehow got me kicked out of my classroom so now I’m no longer the lead teacher and am a floater and just kind of go from room to room. Honestly, I don’t mind being a floater, my raise wasn’t taken from me and I don’t have as many responsibilities. What angers me is that she is dumb, I am not one to just talk bad about someone and I’m not name calling, she is literally dumb. She is 19, married, and has a child but she can’t call a doctors office to get her child’s immunization records without laughing to the point of crying and hanging-up on the receptionist because it’s just SO hilarious to get the shot records for her baby. She couldn’t even call to order her own pizza today, she was laughing and refused to do it so another employee had to do it for her! She blatantly said that Alex, (her husband) makes all phone calls for her. She crys over EVERYTHING and is SUPER emotional. And this is who took my job! She is never in the classroom, never interacts with the children, and just kind of stands around. The art projects that she does….that’s just it…SHE DOES, not the kids! I got taken out of my room because in one month I was late one day a week, I was on my phone, and I didn’t do circle time with the kids. Yes, I was late but within her first week in that room she went home early the first day, called in the second day, and went home early again on the second day. She hasn’t even been in there a full month and she was an hour late today! I was never ON my phone, I used my phone to check the time because they “didn’t have the money” to buy a clock for my room! But as soon as she took over all of sudden the day she started there was a clock in there! I did circle time EVERY day. I really don’t understand this accusation but I just didn’t argue it because what’s the point? I have worked here for about 2 and a half years and I know when they are fishing. She hardly ever does circle time and like I said before, never interacts with the kids.
I don’t know what she did to get that room, and for awhile I felt like my anger towards her was unjust, that I was just angry because maybe she was just asked to take over the room and I’m just angry at how she isn’t getting pulled in the office for all the things she is doing wrong and she is doing a worse job than me…but then the other week she asked another employee to come ask me why I’m no longer a Monkey Teacher (that was the name of my classroom) and to come back and tell her exactly word for word what I say. CHILD! Oh and then went on to say that all I do is talk crap about her… Well I don’t, I have never said anything about her other then pointing out the things that she does and I haven’t said anything behind her back.
She has made it to where I really despise my job, and I used to LOVE my job. So much that I turned down other jobs that I may have received better pay and gotten benefits because I didn’t really need the extra money perse. Now I want a better job and it’s not been very easy to find one.
I need to find a way to just be calm and not be so angry. I don’t like being angry.
and btw what does the title of your tumblr mean? Three Little Birds?
It is a title to a Bob Marley song, it is my all time favorite song by him. I want to get some of the lyrics tattoo’d on me but it would be too long so I think I am going to just get three little birds tattoo’d on me instead. The lyrics are phenominal and always put me in a good mood on a rough day. =)
I went to call my brother to tell him he had jury duty….my brother got jury duty!!!!….I would not want him on my jury, just sayin’ & I call his aunt’s place where he has been staying with his dad & grandma & whoever else lives in that house, & I find out he’s not there & they don’t know where he is & that he may still be in jail (great family let me tell you, they don’t know where he is & that he MIGHT be in jail & they don’t know why he was arrested just that he’s not there. What a fuckin joke.) I’m glad I have no ties with them & that Jon & I have different fathers b/c if that was my aunt, dad, or grandma…..yea….enough explained. So I call around & find out he is in jail & that he has been since the 7th & that he has a $5,000 bail! They said he is charged with 3rd degree burglary with a felony charge. Come to find out he failed to appear for a court date that was set due to charges for breaking into a middle schools convienent stand. I don’t know whether to laugh or cry. I just want to know when it will all end, and when I’ll get a break from all his shanannigans and why it’s me that is stuck with the responsibility of looking after him? Ugh. Yay monday…not.