Oh my gosh where do I even begin? My weekend started last Wednesday and I took Gertrude, my car, to the shop so she could get a new transmission, I don’t have her back yet but I should be getting her tomorrow. On Thursday, I spent the whole day with Chelsea and Char met up with us at La Casa and hung-out with us for a little bit. Friday I cleaned up a little bit but was my first day in I don’t know how long where I just sat down and relaxed until I had to go to my friends wedding rehearsal. Char picked me up and took me to that and then we went to the rehearsal dinner. After that we went to some bar in the Benson area where we split 3 or 4 pitchers of beer and I just totall sucked at pretty much every game we played. On Saturday I was pretty hung-over…you would thing I would learn to not mix wine and beer, but I never do so I had 3 cups of coffee and some mimosas to get rid of it. I went to my friend Jennie’s to get ready for the wedding and then we went to the church to take pictures. Oh my gosh, it was such a beautiful ceremony! I’m not gonna lie, I cried a little bit. Char went with me to that as well and then after the reception Char kidnapped me for the last two days. I had a really nice time. It’s so easy to talk to her. We both have “crazy” family so she can really relate with everything I have been going through with my little brother Johnny and understands what I’m going through with the Guardianship and everything. I felt bad because I had a complete panic attack in her car yesterday b/c Jon text’d me from a random number and he has, in a sense, been missing for a week and I could just tell that he is not okay and has not been taking his medicine. But she was very supportive and was there for me and helped me through my panic attack. But yea, that was my ggreat weekend. I loved every bit of it. I wish I could have had a little more time but at hey what can you do? It’s been quite some time since I have laughed this much. =) Things are still rough and caotic but at the same time things are good.
I had such a great night. I don’t work the rest of the week because Gertrude, my car, is going into the shop to get fixed =) yay. So, I ran a couple errands and then dropped my car off at the shop and then went to the gym and worked out and tanned for a little bit. After leaving there I went home and got ready for the evening. I then got picked up and had a very nice evening out at Jake’s and then went to Village Inn where I attempted to eat but well I ended up just drinking my coffee. lol. I bought this red lip stain that works wonders. I got it at Sephora and yea, it stayed on all night and there were no marks on any of my shot glasses from it. I was quite amazed. There were also no red “lipstick” marks on my coffee mug and they are still pretty red right now. I don’t really want to go to bed wearing it but the last time I tried to wash it all off, well it wasn’t too pretty. I had red lipstick smeared all over the place and black eyeliner/mascara running down my face. I looked like a half mad half tweeker. Although that look is quite entertaining….not a very good look for the gym lol.
Well, I hope everyone had a wonderful evening. I had a great night =)
I finally deleted some texts. I read through all of them…and they started all the way back in November. It was hard reading some of them…and then I got really angry to the point that my chest was kind of blochy, mainly because I still think how everything happened was just kind of fucked but I’m pretty much over it all. I have just come to the realization that some people just want what’s convenient for them. They jump back and forth and from person to person. When things fall apart they try to jump back to a previous person in their lives. They just use people to get what they want. They can’t be alone. There is no point in staying mad or hurt if you were one of the people scarred by their games. Yes, in the beginning by all means get mad…but you have to let go because staying mad and continue to hurt solves nothing and doesn’t change anything. So that’s what I’m doing. I quit being mad and hurt awhile ago, but I never fully let go of everything so I finally did. I think I’m somewhat ready to move on. I’m not completely ready but that was the first step to let go. =) So here’s to new beginnings. =)
Last night was amazing. I went to dinner, it wasn’t supposed to be a date night but that’s what it kind of turned into and to be honest, I’m okay with that. Actually I’m more than okay with it. I had a lot of fun. =) I am exhausted today…and I am already counting down to the weekend =)
This weekend has been pretty great. Although it started out pretty iffy since I was sick on Thursday & was worse on Friday. I was still a little sick on Saturday but we had a couple friends come over and played games and just chilled the whole day and grilled steaks, it was a pretty fantastic day and then today we met up with one of our friends for breakfast and then relaxed the rest of the day and then met up with another friend for dinner. We went home and watched SNL and I made my class their Valentine’s. They are Dr. Seuss valentines which I LOVE. If I ever got any tattoos on my legs I would want one fish, two fish, red fish, blue fish tattoo’d on the back of my calf (just the fish, no words)…it’s my FAVORITE Dr. Seuss book. So I was pretty excited to see that Valentine in the box and saved one for myself. I thought this was going to be another sucky Valentine’s Day but it turns out I was wrong. I already got an amazing Valentine from my friend Sean, I already got a choc. apple from my friend Jessy and she wants to take me to lunch tomorrow, I have my class party tomorrow, and I have dinner plans with a pretty amazing person =) so i’m pretty excited. Even if it’s a kind of anti-valentine’s day thing and neither one of us are ready for a relationship right now, she’s pretty amazing and i’m glad to just spend some time with her and get to know her more. Then Tuesday i’m hanging out with my friend Chelsea, which I’m pretty excited about. I hope everyone has a lovely day tomorrow. Happy Valentine’s Day everyone =) I <3 you all ~Leila