Confusion takes hold of me. Fear is what’s hold me back from my potential. I’m curious, she’s experiential. Everything she does takes me for a spin. The way she speaks, stares, and that dimpled grin. Do I want her? That’s not even in question. I feel that her and I, our connection is destined. But…
I love this, I think it is very well written and Ican relate to it but not the same circumstances.
Well, I didn’t meet any of the goals that I had set for myself yesterday. My alarm went off at 6 and I thought I hit snooze but I didn’t, I accidentally shut it off. I didn’t get any sleep and felt horrible last night and woke-up with a terrible migrane and was going to call in but I shut off my alarm and then the next thing I knew I missed a call from my work around 10:30 and I was supposed to be to work at 9. So needless to say my work was not thrilled when I called and said I hadn’t heard my alarm and that I was meaning to call earlier to call in because I was sick and didn’t feel good. I feel bad because I have been getting sick a lot this winter. I have been getting these horrible migranes lately. They have been making me nauseous. I can’t even drink water. I can’t stand any sound. I can’t sleep because I feel so nauseous. I can’t stand it. I never get sick I am just nauseous.
Lets see how my work takes it all. Time for me to go to bed.
My goals tomorrow: Wake-up at 7:00am Take a shower Eat Breakfast Leave my house by 8:20am to be to work by 9:00am
I have also decided what book I am going to start reading which is nothing I had listed (go figure) it is called: Luminous Mind The Way of the Buddha
I’m really looking forward to reading it. The description on the back of the book: Comparing Kyabje Kalu Rinpoche with Milarepa, the greatest meditation master Tibet has ever known, His Holiness the Dalai Lama extols the author of Luminous Mind as a “beacon of inspiration” for spiritual practitioners of all traditions. Noting that “there have been few like him before or since,” His Holiness urges us to delve into this remarkable anthology of the late Kalu Rinpoche’s essential instructions so that we may encounter “the full range of Buddhist practice from the basic analysis of the nature of the mind up to its ultimate refinement in the teachings of Mahamudra.” Drawn from both his lucid writings and his eloquent oral presentations, this unprecedented book laye bare the full grandeur of Kalu Rinpoche’s legacy. At the same time, the gentle words and playful stories of this master of meditation are filled with a depth of clarity and warmth that could only arise from a profound realization of both wisdom and compassion.
I am really hoping this book helps me find my zen and helps me open up my mind. I will keep everyone informed on how the book goes. I’m hoping to start reading it tomorrow but we will see.
I also want to completely redo my room. I am tired of how cluttered and messy it is. I have so much stuff that I don’t even need in my room and I think it’s time to unclutter my life. My plans are to go through everything and get rid of everything I do not need or use. There will still be stuff that I will keep because there’s just stuff you can’t get rid of but I really want to try and get rid of stuff that I just don’t need. I have a tv and a dvd player in my room that I never use so what’s the point of keeping any of it? I also have a dresser that I never use. So, why do I have that in my room? I want to make my room a little more warm. I want to paint my walls a different color. I love the robins egg blue that I have but I kind of want to go with some natural tones like a warm beige and get a papsan chair in my room and just have it be a cozy environment to just chill and hang-out.
What’s the point of having tons of stuff that never get used? What’s the point of having tons of clutter in your life? All it does is just keep building…and you just collect more and more stuff. So it’s time to clean it all up! Don’t you agree?
Dear John by: Nicholas Sparks This is an amazing book!
Description: When Savannah Lynn Curtis comes into his life, John Tyree knows he is ready to turn over a new leaf. An angry rebel, he had enlisted in the army after high school, not knowing what else to do. Then, during a furlough, he meets Savannah, the girl of his dreams. The attraction is mutual and quickly grows into the kind of love that leaves Savannah vowing to wait for John while he finishes his tour of duty. But neither can foresee that 9/11 is about to change the world. Like so many proud med and women, John must choose between love and country. Now, when he finally returns to North Carolina, John will discover that loving Savannah will force him to make the hardest decision of his life.
I thought this was an amazing book, I will admit I cried lol. I couldn’t put the book down. I am excited to see the movie but I’m scared at the same time. I am horrible when it comes to reading a book and then watching a movie made from the book. I don’t like it when the movies stray from the story line. I understand why they do it because if you stick to a story line exactly the movies would be too long. But it still bugs me.
Now for my next reading project I am trying to decide between these books: Middlesex by: Jeffrey Eugenides Description: Middlesex tells the breathtaking story of Calliope Stephanides, and three generations of the Greek-American Stephanides family, who travel from a tiny village overlooking Mount Olympus in Asia Minor to Prohibition-era Detroit, witnessing its glory days as the Motor City, and the race riots of 1967, before they move out to the tree-lined streets of suburban Grosse Pointe, Michigan. To understand why Calliope is not like other girls, she has to uncover a guilty family secret, and the astonishing genetic history that turns Callie into Cal, one of the most audacious and wondrous narrators in contemporary fiction.
Juniper Tree Burning by: Goldberry Long Description: When Jennie Braverman, formerly knows as Juniper Tree Burning, gets news of her brother Sunny Boy Blue’s suicide, she flees her new husband and embarks upon a mad dash across the American West toward the site of Sunny’s death. Forced to confront the past, Jennie must face the shame of the childhood name she has been so happy to shed. Only after she weaves her way through a tapestry of family sorrows-poverty, a spider-infested adobe house, and the legacy of her hippie parents-will Jennie be able to take on her greatest challenge: accepting love.
The Kite Runner by: Khaled Hosseini Description: This powerful first novel…tells a story of fierce cruelty and fierce yet redeeming love. Both transform the life of Amir, Khaled Hosseini’s privileged young narrator, who comes of age during the last peaceful days of the monarchy, just before his country’s revolution and its invasion by Russion forces. But political events, even as dramatic as the ones that are presented in The Kite Runner, are only a part of this story. In The Kite Runner, Khaled Hosseini gives us a vivid and engaging story that reminds us how long his people have been struggling to triumph over the forces of violence-forces that continue to threaten them even today.” That was submitted by the New York times but it was the only description I could find.